i guess i shall just be alone. good bye idiotic me...

♥ 12:41 AM

i really dunno what more to do. just when i thought things are falling into place.. i'm so wrong. some things just won't remain the way they are despite countless times of salvaging it. no matter what you do,it'll somehow slip away.. once,there's this guy and a girl. they had a 'filling' year together. Eating at places which had significance,money doesn't really matter. had their one year anniversary and the guy thought they would be each other's forever. everything turned around as new year approaches. the guy realised his mistakes,asking the girl to leave him alone because he doesn't like the way she did things. ignored her. said hurtful things. she then went to one of the guy's friends. they got closer by the day. not realising how much pain it caused the guy. all he could do was watch them. each day. together,just the two talking,having fun and kept laughing. for some reason,the guy always sees them together. painful it was,all he could do was walk away.

(flashback) on new year's eve,the guy celebrated with his friends,whom he trusted and told them a secret. one that made me keep holding on to her. it was no surprise i guess cause knowing how the guy and the girl were always so close,doing almost everything together. his friends suggested that the guy call the girl and said to her that he doesn't love her anymore and they should just walk opposite directions. the guy was tearing up inside.he did not want to say that. because both of them had agreed to stay together no matter what. there were letters too. not written by the guy. as much as he wanted to let go,the girl was on his mind the whole night. he thought that a couple would spent the new year in each other's arms and enjoy the lovely night,a year ahead of them,a life ahead and their end. maybe it was not meant to be.

(present) its obvious why ppl questioned whether the guy and the girl were still together. they were like strangers. at least the girl had another guy to love. the guy's wondering,what kind of a friend would do such a thing,accepting the girl whom his friend loved so much? the guy doesnt hate the friend at all,just wondering,confused. and of all people,she chose him,a friend. wonder whats on the girl's mind. its either the end for the guy or .... wait,there isn't anything else but the end for the guy. it'll someday come..

end of the dumb story. i just hope i'll find a girl who isn't like the one in the story. love. these 4 letters can either make people happy or simply feel so hurt that they wanna end everything just because of a silly mistake.

♥ 12:11 AM

today last day le. tomorrow will be a fresh new year for us. understood each other well though,despite the 'fights' we had. can't wait for tomorrow.. how long would happiness last for us? thats the question that i'm pondering now.. afraid that it might not even last.. still,hope to have a happy life with you ahead:D i wonder what i'd do if i got terribly upset over you again.. lets be happy from now on k? lets try! iloveyoubaby<3 you must post also hor. this shall be our blog from now on.. just pour everything that is disturbing you here next time k? baby,i'm sorry.. for everything:'( still,iloveyou<3 good night and HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!! hope we'll stay together forever:D sleep tight...smooch xD loveyou!

♥ 11:36 PM

today suck. i hate you!! goodbye.. dont bother looking me up again..and i wonder why i worked so hard for..wasting my life on things that just make me unhappy..bye

♥ 6:28 PM

its been sometime now... actually i've got nothing to say. sigh.. things still went back to the it was. i just realised just now that i was happy to be with you and just play normally..but the first moment i saw you today,i really just wanted to run away.those unhappy memories suddenly went back. was i wrong to drag you back into my life again when you really didnt want me last time? you clearly said you only love him. i'm so stupid to have kissed you in the first place. my first kiss was on you and you treat it as if it was nothing when you already kissed two other ppl or maybe more. i really dont know whats wrong with us. i dont want this life anymore. i'm sick of it. i dont like it anymore. today you told me that your primary school friend asked you out to play.you could've just said no but you didnt. previously,when things got rough,you always asked me whether i want to break up with you and i told you i never want to. but now,i dont see any point why should we continue. i really want to say goodbye for the last time.i really want to. why wont you just let me go? why? i've asked too much of you. fine i wont anymore. in fact i wont care anymore. you lead your own life and i lead mine. i wish i could say goodbye to everything...

Labels: crying my heart out while i said this... :(

♥ 1:08 AM

Emo-ing in progress...


Arshad: 'Come on. SLAP ME!'
Cheryl: 'YES I WILL!'

Arshad: 'Bleah! Slap me if you can!'
Cheryl: 'HERE I COME!'

♥ 8:13 PM

you've been asking me to forgive you the whole day. why should i? why are you wasting your time? not your fault what. its mine. since you like confiding in ppl,i checked on a thing of the past. i went to a friend's blog. one whom you were very close to at that point of time. from what i've read,i can feel that he likes you and very much wanted to take you away. i still remembered the scene where we were at mac. both of you were separated by someone but still both of you were meddling with your phones. consecutively,meaning one look and send a msg and put down after that,then the other picks up the phone and replied. it was too obvious. you still wanted him to follow you to buy something when i was there. it was certain that you wanted to talk to him one on one. still remembered how you treated me during the obog concert night. i wasnt feeling well but you left me. how i wish i could've died today. i dont feel happy at all.

friends betrayal,shooted at for no reason,ppl wanting to kill me,wanting me to die( esp. my mum),all the teachers blaming me.

Labels: crying my heart out while i said this... :(

♥ 10:18 PM